Feeling Untethered

You’ve lost your lifetime partner or beloved family member, the one you’ve lived years and years with. The fact is that our loved one is gone, and there is not a thing we do can bring them back. We can do nothing to change this circumstance. Our brains don’t like change. Our brains want to keep us safe. We want to go back into the cave and just be safe. However, for those of us who have suddenly lost our life partner, even the cave doesn’t feel so safe anymore. Is the cave even still there without our person?

I lost my husband on October 8, 2020. He died so very suddenly of a Pulmonary Embolism. We had a normal, work-at-home day together. At 5:00pm he left to get the oil changed in my car—how ordinary is that? By 6:15pm, he was gone.

These past two yearsI have felt all of the emotions. I still feel all of the emotions, and I am in an okay place. I am still heartbroken over the loss of my life partner, everyday, almost every moment, I think of him! And yet, we live life in forward, not in reverse.